I walk on the street. I see people around me. Lots of them. Chilling, sitting, talking. On some other day, in some other period of time, it might have made me conscious. Atleast a tad bit. Surroundings did affect me. But today, I walk along. Struggling with my ice cream that is melting from all corners of the cone. I have slipped into my shoes comfortably. Alone is okay now I suppose. Which is strange!
This new year…even if figuratively speaking, is giving me lot of positive vibes about it. I am going with the flow. I am not putting much thought into things. I met this guy the other day…and in middle of something he noticed the weird brown color of my eyes..and i have been through that “oh your eyes are different..beautiful” so many times…and i responded my usual “yeah..i have heard that”..but it still felt good. Made me smile. My inside nerves were kind of surprised..that okay, i am feeling content in the moment. We walked…and spoke…and walked some more..and i have lost track of the responses i evoke when a guy is looking at me..but the funny thing is I still blush. It was like am dusting off an old book from yore. The uncertainities when meeting a new person are plenty and i guess that makes it so easy. You are not expecting anything and there is no load on your shoulders. I know life goes on…and people come people go….am not analysing it much. May be it’s better to be in the moment. My friends are pretty relieved and happy that i met some person! It’s endearing to realize how they are always there. And it’s funny how they enquire and speculate. Mind says: Take it easy.